Day 10 & 11 and Emotional Mess

Quick update before getting into the thick of this post:

I worked out Monday morning- did a HIIT workout that was super tough. Only slightly modified from the first time I completed it on February 21st yet I shaved a few minutes off my time. Here's the WOD:

BLOCK 1: 3 times through
KB Swings (10kg) 15 reps
Plank (jack + knee) 10 total (5 each leg)
Tricep extension 10 reps
Lunge + Bicep curl (12# dumbbells) 20 total (10 each leg)

BLOCK 2: 3 times through
Side plank left 10 reps
Side plank right 10 reps 
Burpees 10 reps
Superman w/ Pull 10 reps

BLOCK 3: 3 times through
High Knees 20 reps
Push-ups (modified) 10 reps
Donkey kicks (knee bent) 10 reps each leg
Mountain climbers 30 reps

BLOCK 4: 3 times through
Good morning w/ circles (10kg kb) 5 reps  *Sweaty hands so I switched to the dumbbell after a while which was easier to grasp*
Sumo Squat 20# 10 reps
Knee plank w/ Arm Pull (8# dumbbells) 10 reps (5 each arm)

Time was just around 31 minutes if I recall (forgot to save it on phone).

Wednesday morning I went for a 2-mile long walk in the morning with my  neighbor which was wonderful. It was beautiful outside.

I haven't worked out since.

Now to the stuff I really want to try and document...

I'm really feeling the effects of having the IUD come out. I'm an emotional wreck. Anyone who knows me knows I'm hyper-rational and a control freak so to feel so out of control emotionally is horrible for me. I'm having a lot of anxiety right now yet I can't pinpoint the cause exactly (because there isn't anything causing it except my hormones being so out of whack). 

This past weekend I was really anxious and I told Michael I wan't sure why. I told him "I have so much anxiety right now and I can't turn it off. I can't tell you why. I know it's not rational yet it's how I feel." Talking about it helped.

Then early this morning I had a bad dream. I had a dream Michael left me because he was having a mid-life crisis. He said he wasn't happy and needed to take some time to figure things out. It was horrible. One of those heart-wrenching dreams you can't wake up from. I finally woke up & Michael was already awake getting ready for work. I asked him to come lay in bed with me and cuddle and I told him about the dream. Of course, he said he loves me with all his heart and he can't live without me. Then, in typical Michael-fashion of cracking a joke when I need it, he says, "Plus, if I ever do that just tell me I can go buy a corvette and it will all be ok." At that point I just started BALLING. I mean, WTF? So not like me.

It's been about 5 hours since the dream and I am still feeling anxious about it. I'm feeling anxious about work (no reason), I'm feeling anxious about my home (no reason), my dogs (no reason), etc.

I made an acupuncture appointment for Monday and hopefully that will help. I'm on the verge of tears constantly which is just crazy. I'm never like that. 

I'm hoping this is just temporary and a side effect of having my hormones go into overdrive in the past week. 

I should exercise MORE to release some endorphins and try to counteract the negativity I'm feeling yet I have no drive to do it.