Goodbye

I've got some workouts to report but just haven't logged them.

But unfortunately this will be my last post & in about a week, I'll be deleting it. I'm working with a publicist for my business (they sought me out) and it means things like this need to be removed.

I've purchased a fitness journal from etsy and I'm going to begin using that as soon as it arrives in the mail. To be honest, I've always preferred written "planners" than online versions but because of my business, I switched to online. I think the new planner/journal/log will really help to set goals & SEE them laid out in front of me. This blog is almost too hard because it can very quickly become out of sight out of mind!

I also want to begin writing down everything I eat, which is too difficult if I have to get to a computer & log in to do it. The planner will make this more possible. My diet has been completely out of control but we've been driving back and forth so much to be with family that we're eating on the road 2 meals a day. Not good. Lack of planning & emotional eating for sure.

Megan, since you were the only one following this blog, I'm still really excited to read along on your blog and I hope you'll stick w/ it. I'll tweet every now & then & let you know my progress!! :)

Workout 14 AND 15 AND My WORST day ever!!

Okay I'm being a little dramatic, it wasn't my worst day EVER, just a really bad day.

Monday, I was so gungho if you recall. I worked out TWICE in one day and was feeling great. I was feeling committed.

Then Tuesday I threw it all way. Straight down the drain it goes- good bye!! Wave to it as you see it swirl down the toilet.

I went to relieve Michael's parents from hanging out 24/7 at the nursing home. I sat there while they went home, showered, took naps, ran a few errands, etc. I had PLENTY of time to do some stretches or do any number of exercises. But I didn't do any of those things.

Not only that, but because Michael's parents had been living in this small room, they had a bunch of food there. And his parents do not eat healthy at all. They're the worst at snacks and desserts. His mom has a dessert after lunch & dinner...it's no wonder my husband was a chubby kid.

I KNOW myself well enough to know that I cannot be around that stuff because I will eat it.

And I did.

I ate a lot of it. Then they ordered dinner from an Italian restaurant and not only did I have spaghetti & meatballs but also garlic bread and like I said, they always have dessert so I had a few bites of cheesecake and chocolate cake they ordered.

It was bad.

I was feeling really guilty for doing it too. And the thing with being a financial coach is that my acute awareness of how what I SAY I want to see happen and what I ACTUALLY DO are two different things. It's like I can coach myself to say how ridiculous I'm being. It's bad.

Health is 80% diet and 20% exercise and activity yet I keep trying to make stupid decisions on the diet and what I put into my body and then try to make up for it on the workouts. It's never going to work that way.

Today, at least I worked out... twice...

First, I headed to the gym & did some leg exercises. I did 3 different supersets:

Set 1 - 3 times through
KB swings (15 reps)
Walking lunges (10 each leg) w/ 40# bar

Set 2 - 3 times through
Step ups holding 2 kbs
Wallballs (blue ball at the gym) 10 reps

Set 3 - 3 times through
Donkey kicks 8 each leg
Heels on the ball, hip extension 10 reps

Then I did all my foam rolling exercises.

Then tonight after work I ran for 30 minutes then walked for 10 minutes. I don't know my distance because I accidentally turned off my GPS while running but it was slooooow going- probably 12 minute mile at least b/c my legs were so fatigued from the leg workout earlier.

Workout 13 - Holy Hot Run

I've been say Day 1, Day 2, etc to count my workouts but I shouldn't be saying "day" I should be saying "workout #" b/c today I worked out twice and I'm counting them both.

I realized yesterday after reading my intentions for the month that my goal was 25 workouts this month...for some reason I had in my head it was 20 so I thought I was right on track (if not ahead)... now I'm realizing I'm actually behind. So, I'm stepping up my game a bit and fitting it in more than once per day if necessary!

I ate lunch then waited for my stomach to settle and headed out for a jog. I jogged but every 2 minutes or just over, I would sprint for 30 seconds. I kind of imagined I'd do that for 3 miles but honestly, it's just so god awful hot here in Phoenix already. It's 87* out right now but if you've ever lived in Phoenix you know that when the sun is beating down on you, it feels way hotter than that.

I ended up going ---

2.55 miles in 27:29

I'm pretty happy with that because that's a pretty good pace for me considering the heat! Average pace = 10:46/mile

Now I'm a sweaty gross mess but I feel great. Glad I got that done.

Day 12 - Weight Lifting

I headed to the gym this morning before work and got in some good training.

Lat pull downs (3 sets)
Narrow grip pull (3 sets)
Bench press (3 sets)
Chest flies (3 sets)

Then I did my hip & leg exercises on the foam roller which felt great.

I have a goal of doing those exercises every day between now & my tri. Otherwise, I'm going to be hurting that day & I know it! So even if we end up traveling, I'm going to do any exercises I can without a foam roller... I've got a few stretches I cand o.

Getting back on track

Starting tomorrow, I'm going to eat clean until my triathlon. I had a bad weekend of partying and ate like crap.

This week I'm going to have to be flexible. My husband's Grandma is not doing well. Hospice was brought in yesterday and she's not expected to make it a day or two even. While she lives in AZ now, her funeral and everything will be held back in Michigan so we'll likely be heading back on Thursday through Sunday. Everything is up in the air right now.

My plans are to workout Monday, Tuesday & Wednesday since those days I know we'll be here for certain.

On another note, I'm feeling MUCH better! I took fish oil and all my vitamins the past few days which I think has had a really positive impact w/ my hormones and how I'm feeling. 

Day 10 & 11 and Emotional Mess

Quick update before getting into the thick of this post:

I worked out Monday morning- did a HIIT workout that was super tough. Only slightly modified from the first time I completed it on February 21st yet I shaved a few minutes off my time. Here's the WOD:

BLOCK 1: 3 times through
KB Swings (10kg) 15 reps
Plank (jack + knee) 10 total (5 each leg)
Tricep extension 10 reps
Lunge + Bicep curl (12# dumbbells) 20 total (10 each leg)

BLOCK 2: 3 times through
Side plank left 10 reps
Side plank right 10 reps 
Burpees 10 reps
Superman w/ Pull 10 reps

BLOCK 3: 3 times through
High Knees 20 reps
Push-ups (modified) 10 reps
Donkey kicks (knee bent) 10 reps each leg
Mountain climbers 30 reps

BLOCK 4: 3 times through
Good morning w/ circles (10kg kb) 5 reps  *Sweaty hands so I switched to the dumbbell after a while which was easier to grasp*
Sumo Squat 20# 10 reps
Knee plank w/ Arm Pull (8# dumbbells) 10 reps (5 each arm)

Time was just around 31 minutes if I recall (forgot to save it on phone).

Wednesday morning I went for a 2-mile long walk in the morning with my  neighbor which was wonderful. It was beautiful outside.

I haven't worked out since.

Now to the stuff I really want to try and document...

I'm really feeling the effects of having the IUD come out. I'm an emotional wreck. Anyone who knows me knows I'm hyper-rational and a control freak so to feel so out of control emotionally is horrible for me. I'm having a lot of anxiety right now yet I can't pinpoint the cause exactly (because there isn't anything causing it except my hormones being so out of whack). 

This past weekend I was really anxious and I told Michael I wan't sure why. I told him "I have so much anxiety right now and I can't turn it off. I can't tell you why. I know it's not rational yet it's how I feel." Talking about it helped.

Then early this morning I had a bad dream. I had a dream Michael left me because he was having a mid-life crisis. He said he wasn't happy and needed to take some time to figure things out. It was horrible. One of those heart-wrenching dreams you can't wake up from. I finally woke up & Michael was already awake getting ready for work. I asked him to come lay in bed with me and cuddle and I told him about the dream. Of course, he said he loves me with all his heart and he can't live without me. Then, in typical Michael-fashion of cracking a joke when I need it, he says, "Plus, if I ever do that just tell me I can go buy a corvette and it will all be ok." At that point I just started BALLING. I mean, WTF? So not like me.

It's been about 5 hours since the dream and I am still feeling anxious about it. I'm feeling anxious about work (no reason), I'm feeling anxious about my home (no reason), my dogs (no reason), etc.

I made an acupuncture appointment for Monday and hopefully that will help. I'm on the verge of tears constantly which is just crazy. I'm never like that. 

I'm hoping this is just temporary and a side effect of having my hormones go into overdrive in the past week. 

I should exercise MORE to release some endorphins and try to counteract the negativity I'm feeling yet I have no drive to do it. 

Day 9 - Run while camping

Just documenting a 30-minute run we completed yesterday on the trails near our campsite. I believe it was about 2.65 miles in that time. It was INSANELY windy and at one point I felt like I was running in a tornado.

Boring post but I wanted to make sure I didn't forget to count it.

I'm excited for a much CALMER week this week compared to last. I feel caught up on sleep and ready to start the week! I can't wait!

On a positive note- I did GREAT eating healthy while camping.

Then I came home and our tenants left a BUNCH of junk food at the house and I totally scarfed! aaah!! Dang it!!

If it's in front of me, I cannot say no to it. That's why I don't buy it!!!